"I asked STanford if they were going to keep the Schizoaffective diagnosis. I was hoping they were going to change to some form of major depressive," my therapist says during our session. "No, they are sticking to it. They think you are going to deal with these voices the rest of your life."

I asked my therapist how ill I was comparatively. She gave me a convoluted answer, one of which I didn't understand.

"Your depression is pretty intractable," she remarks.