Nothing Was Random or Coincidental x

"His longstanding conviction that the universe was rational evolved into a caricature of itself, turning into an unshakable belief that everything had meaning, everything had a reason, nothing was random or coincidental. For much of the time, his grandoise delusions insulated him from the painful reality of all that he had lost. But then would come terrible flashes of awareness...He sometimes told others that his enforced idleness made him feel ashamed of himself, worthless. MOre often, he expressed his suffering wordlessly."

--A Beautiful Mind by Nasar x