All I can see as I project into the future at my friend's wedding are the "forever's" and "I do's" and didn't I deal with the guilt of the Facebook Message enough through the voices.

Didn't I in some way want myself to pay for going against an institution like marriage? dd

Didn't I hate marriage and feel guilty for disrupting what marriage stands for?

Who am I?

I certainly couldn't look to the voices to tell me.