It is a Blink

Everyone is corruptible. d

That's not true. Some people don't give in to peer pressure. Some people never even tell under torture. Some people never steal. Some people never do a lot of things.

We can all look back, and say, "I should have done this..."

My grandmother never forgave my grandfather for his affairs, and finally for his suicide. For his obvious faults in life. His absence. "YOu weren't there..." For the kids. For me.

You can waste four years with someone, pining away for someone. Or you can waste a lifetime in hatred and bitterness because of what you perceive that someone did to you.

Four years isn't that long. It's a blink. It's over. He wasn't there. He didn't care that much. If he did, he would have chosen differently. we're all sad about it. CAn you hear us crying?

I cry more over Howard. Why? I don't know what happened there. Did he never write? Did he never call? Did he call and write? And then it was trashed? Is he out there? Is he married? Is he happy? SAd? He was happy when we met . He was the type of guy who if you broke up with him, he'd leave you love notes in your car . YOu can tell.

You might as well pine over someone imaginary. Who d doesn't exist. Waste your energy on that. HOward, I love you. Okay. Maybe he will keep you company until someone who is physical comes around.

It's all about disappointment and moving on. YOu disappointed me. I will go over here. I can. Why? I"m still young and attractive. People never understood why I kept going back to MOprheus. Ou didn't move on! I love him. You're retarded, they'd say. I know. One day, though, one day, you send out an SOS. NO response. d. YOu can't forgive that.

YOu you said you'd always forgive. Until the day you leave. I can't. Now I leave.