You can fight back with the will of the heart, the do of the hand through writing, and the power of the soul.

And the majesty of the mind. d.

Samsung

"You were very much in love with her. And you're still in love with her. But it amused me to make you ashamed of it. You gave up on the first person you ever loved because I threatened your reputation. Don't you get it? You're just a toy, Sebastian. A little toy I like to play with. And now you've completely blown it with her. I think it's the saddest thing I've ever heard."

--Cruel Intentions (1999), "Kathryn"

Makes my top five favorite movies.

Samsung theory.

We in America are still in the BLAME THE VICTIM.

EVEN IF THE VICTIM IS A WHITE FEMALE.

You are in a crime, you are associated in the crime even if you were just walking down the street.

"Do you feel guilty?"

For what?

Don't TRY THIS SHIT AT HOME OKAY? D

YOu call back 911. "It wasn't that fucking hard. Okay? I got that shit out of the garage. Sanitized it with the fucking Jack." d

"Ma'am are you alright?"

"I had some ol' Vikes around, why?"

"If it is a benign neurological symptom, why does it only happen in front of the computer?" I said to the FBI AGent on Duty, referring to my "twitch" which repetitively spelled out the "d."

Why is the burden on me to solve the crime when these are the investigative agencies?

YOu call 911. "WAit. NO. I don't need you anymore. I pumped my own stomach." d

STarted my own IV.

"You tell 'em I'M coming... and hell's coming with me, you hear?..."

--Wyatt Earp, Tombstone (1993)

I love this quote because what resolve we have when we have nothing else.

I am my own road to hope.

My younger cousin is getting married today.

I am not going. I should.

It is a bit ironic that I received the "Loose this number...thank you" response from Morpheus to my proposal on the day of her wedding. d

Why the Aliens Hacked Morpheus.

Morpheus was a hard person not to sympathize with, and then he drew a lot of abuse to me from the outside (from my friends and family who disapproved).

He was trouble from the get-go.

'I'm getting a divorce.'

Which just went on and on and on and on.

Then the dog died.

And Lacey said, "But he's so pretty."

The dog or Morpheus?

Both.

Oh.

YOu don't want me.
nO

You don't love me.
nO

You don't like me.
nO

YOu don't really want to be with me.
no d

I feel guilty
no

Then you won't let me go
nO d

ZMaybe it's not such a happy little ending after all. Maybe we don't really like each other.

Maybe love isn't love. Maybe love is goddamn awful.

Maybe love is fucking Zyprexa and 2 weeks at UCLA and three meals a day and 2 group therapy sessions where they make you talk about how "we're not okay."

Do you feel better about yourself when you scream at me?

Yes. Really? Good. I feel better afterwards when I scream at you. WE're all in this together, me and you. Nice little cozy, goddamn abusive cycle. Who started it? I think you did, though.

NO. You did. d

Fuck you. YOu did. ASshole. d



Two days later, I'm high and drunk and driving my Mercedes into a center divider on Highway 101.

I feel sorry for people who don't care about anyone but themselves. Because in the end, they realize themselves are pretty fucking worthless, and then they do a lot of shit to hide that fact. Drugs. d. Alcohol. Reckless bullshit.

Ask around.

then they realize, and then they want you to feel worthless with them. So, they try. Easy formula.

Got it down? "You die."

"I kill you."

I"m not dead yet. Easy there, Sparky.

Later, though okya/

Fuckin' do some more crack. Okay! YES!

Maybe he's just the head trip.

Maybe he's not sorry because he doesn't feel sorry.

This is a heartbreak story. This is a love story.

And someday, it will make more sense.

Maybe they think the more you twist in the trap, the more you bleed, the more you're wounded, the more you go down.

You get better.

"Thank you."

NO need to thank. If you give a cold rebuttal, you can't control anymore.

They all come back. They come back when you don't want them to. They have to now. Because they're in it for the fight.

This is still a love story.

People talk about the "machine" or the "conspiracy," but it's about love.

YOu don't see that, but you will. Always about one girl in love with a guy.

I'll take that all the way to D.C. or the New York Times. One girl and she's in love with a guy.

Where's the guy? What happened to the guy?

I don't know, but she's still in love with him?

YES> o
she has to be because besides that, she only has her goddamn pride left. And she doesn't like that. And then those fucking Constitutional Rights. a

She has to chase the ghost. Of what she lost. d

For Palin and Clinton

It's difficult but necessary to maintain an outward appearance of normalcy. For the rest of society which you no longer really participate, because it's another slip in the slide of function.

I hide in the house most of the time, becoming a person I don't like to see. One day, an squirmish in a battle. ONe day, a battle. The next, the war. The problem isn't our country, but our society. We produce the individuals in our homes, who go into our military, into our government, who grow up to vote, to not vote. That they be cruel or kind, giving or not.

"You better have proof, and not just be wasting all these people's time," says my grandmother, who was sitting on the couch next to me.

Morpheus answered. Told me to loose his number.

That was his response to my proposal.

Ogas and Gaddam argue that romance novels and their Internet-era counterpart, “fan fiction,” dramatize the workings of female desire.

--A Billion Wicked Thoughts

LOL d

NO. ddd

YOu are so owrong!

You have no sense of humor
NO ;

"Mr. Welch also led the prosecution of Thomas Drake, a former National Security Agency official accused of leaking information about enormous cost overruns and mismanagement at that agency to The Baltimore Sun. Earlier this month, Mr. Drake — who had faced up to 35 years in prison — was sentenced to a year’s probation after the government’s case against him largely collapsed."

--Federal Judge Agrees..

Thomas, want to have drinks? d No, I'm serious. I'm tall and pretty. And we have big, big, break for us, Thomas!!! I don't have a Thomas in m ylife.

Shame Upon the Family

"An angry crowd of 300 surged around them, calling them adulterers and demanding that they be stoned to death or hanged."

--Afghans Rage at Young Lovers...

"Ms. Mohammedi’s uncle visited her in jail to say she had shamed the family, and promised that they would kill her once she was released. Her father, an illiterate laborer who works in Iran, sorrowfully concurred. He cried during two visits to the jail, saying almost nothing to his daughter. Blood, he said, was perhaps the only way out."