The Fight

“When was the last time anybody said anything about Libya?” said Representative Phil Gingrey, a Republican from Georgia who was elected in 2002. “This is the way it is going to be until the election.”

--Debit Bill Signed, Ending Fractious..

Whenever things would get really out of control on the phones,

I would switch gears, and say, "I'm going to start talking about [Morpheus's] balls." d

"Do you want me to hang up?" d

HOney. d

Pain should be private. Not in this world.

In this world, they want even that for theirs.

You can do bad, bad things.
nO

And then, one day, you can wake up and you can make a decision to do good.
nO

YOu can still do the right thing.
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I am Jack's series of lies. ad

I am Jack's failure in respect.
nO dd

I only got one response in that.
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Becaue you guys suck'nO d

It was going to go one or two ways, and it didn't go the other way.

It went this way.

ON the surface, our relationship hasn't change.

"I'm losing EVERYTHING FOR YOU!" He says.

But secretly, and not-s0-secretly, he wants me to leave. Not return his calls. Not respond.

In this way, the war ends. For us.

Why I know this? Because he could have opened the truck door, and stopped me.

"Hey, Lace..."

But he didn't. He sat there. d.

You can program a man, but not a heart.

A heart would have chased me down the street.

I wanted him to be in on the joke. LIke it's sharing, see, honey?

BABy! d I loooves you. TTOO! Don't put this shit in my box while I"m pretending to be at work.

K's! d

Why don't you harass [The General] more?


He scares me. dd




Instead, I got schoolteacher Morpheus: "I DO NOT KNOW THESE PEOPLE." D

Cries. d

Everyone needs to be genuinely pissed off about something. dd

Forget the hacking, the stalking, the manipulative bullshit. I'm only pissed off that he didn't look at my series of TXT-messages in his box, and say, "That's kind of fucking funny!" And then laugh a little.

"[The General] has two wives?"

He can afford them. Okay. Moving on. d

INstead, he played school teacher. "Lacey, you are out of line. Back in line!!! Lacey!!!! What ARE YOU DOING??"

Cries. d

"There's blood on this counter...from what?" My grandmother said this morning while making coffee.

She worries about the strangest things.

No one was slaughtering animals. NO one was making a human sacrifice, which is probably illegal somewheres in something!

NO worries!

WE tried, but didn't really try because we could have tried harder.

Because there was no "WE."

[In life.]

They lie. IN LOVE.

There's no "us."

The love of my life, and he's going to turn into a few phone calls a year.

One of my former friends told me a long time ago that this was better--four years--instead of wasting ten, and he was still doing it with one of his ex-lovers.

Still in my consciousness, do the phone calls matter?

You expending energy on a ghost, a man never there.

A relationship never was.

An idea never put into reality.

A model never made into stone.

This is our story, the heartbreak story, the love story. The full story. You always.

"I think we can handle one little girl."

--The Matrix (1999)

I have dedicated myself to a new life of solitude until after I can get this mess cleaned up. d

This is after my proposal was callously thrown away by Morpheus.

I will not communicate with anyone who I do not know in person unless he or she comes from a reliable source (i.e. a major blog and/or newspaper). I will not deal with anon's period until I have the hacking gone.




I told the anon "Rod" to go with me to the DA. d. The He/She/It said,

"I'm not playing your paranoia game girlie..."

This is the part of the TV show where you're negotiating with the bad guys, and your bad guys are behind you, the good-bad guys, and you turn around.

And there's no one there. d

YOu're--

Saying what?

FFUCK. DDDd

What am I doing?

I don't even know.

What am I up against?

I can't even see.

I got some basic, some outline of advice.

Go there. Ask this person. Maybe this. Maybe that. d.

I never went to law school.

I look over these Federal wiretapping cases, "Huh. I think they're talking in circles. Right? That's a round logic. Thingy. d." Dismissed. d

Why can't they just get a dissolution of marriage??

Fuck.

Here. File. Final Judgment. Yay!

I am Jack's chained self-loathing.

I Am Jack's Hack

“Warfare is ultimately not a denial of the human capacity for social cooperation, but merely the most destructive expression of it,” the anthropologist Lawrence H. Keeley writes in his book “War Before Civilization” (Oxford, 1996).

--the Sign of An Advancing Society...

Compared with other species, humans are highly cooperative and altruistic, at least toward members of their own group.

These hacker groups tout that they are political. They're criminal.

They have no cause for freedom. They're not fighting for anyone's rights.

No one wants to do the right thing, from the cops to the sheriffs to the FBI.

The right thing.

except if you call the Fire Department.

They're awesome.

And the only EMT I've met who was bad was one in a bar (and he didn't work in this area).

Plus, just went through a divorce. Eeek!